Moving on is the acceptance of what has been done, forgiving the afflict-er and forgetting the pain.
When you have done all three, you will be ready to move on to life, love and independence.
I know moving on sounds simple enough, but it's a lengthy process and it is not easy, most of the time you will be so busy and caught up in life you wont know if you moved on until you take a look in your past.
Last week for example, I went on to my ex husband's facebook page, I saw that they had a baby; I cannot explain the joy I felt when I saw Colby holding his son. I realized I was truly at peace and had moved on, I no longer would hear his name or think about him and fly into a fit of rage.
As I move on, I feel my heart overflowing with love for everyone, I don't feel angry anymore. I use to say I was hurt but lets be honest, we feel anger not hurt.
We were sold a dream, a fairy tale of happily ever after and even though we knew they weren't perfect, we didn't care because we loved them, and love is stronger then anything. So when they broke our hearts and we finally realized love would only be a dream, we got angry, disguised it as hurt, but it is anger. Its anger that drives us want to raise our voice when speaking to them about the divorce, it drives us to call them names or insult their intelligence. The only reason we are so angry is because we still love them, not the person they ended up being, but the person we thought they were when we fell in love.
We spend most of our time wondering what happened to my best friend, why did they abandoned me, was this just a piece of paper or did our marriage really mean something.
I found peace when I stopped trying to figure out the why and accepted that it was happening, he nor I were a bad person, we just had a bad marriage and all things will come to an end for the betterment of all those involved.
Three years after my divorce, I find peace in knowing Colby is sealed to his wife and child, that he and his family are happy and God has been looking down on him and showering him with blessings as he has me.
When your heart starts to fill with anger, remember to love,
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